Here's the deal. Yesterday was a bummer when it came to one of my ex's. He's the recent one name's I rather not say but if you know me you know who im talking about.... I really do hate him in a way, but in another I envy, care, and love him. With him it was like it hit me like a truck. It was back at Acen 2008. I had my bright red hair short, and I was at a rave. The Soap Bubble, me dancing of course and that's when I saw him, dancing in the raves circle. The flashing lights hitting his shirtless body every which way, him and his white neko hat violent movements and flashing breaking moves. Loing behold I didn't know him even though I admired him.
I went in the circle to challenge him. We danced around each other, beautifully, each move I did he matched just with ease. I know he was just going to play with my feelings just like every other guy that I have dated... But I wanted to try.
So the rave ended and I hadn't seen him in about 2010 Reactor so I think that would be 3 years. Which is a long time. I always treasured the memory of that raving night since it took my mind of things, daydreaming is a sin. Any way I was there and he was as well. He had purple hair and he was as breathtaking as when I first met him. I knew who he was when he started dancing. I remembered his body. The way it moved and looked, but I still didn't know him and long behold he was with his friends...
During the gay little rave at this party con happened we challenged each other. I had gotten better and he said " I don't like it. " and I laughed and smiled. Then a little into the rave near the end I say him kiss some girl, one of his friends. my stomach dropped and I turned around and walked away. At the time I knew how disappointment felt and I went back to chilling with my friends with a smile. Soon after the convention I forgot about him and the kiss and went on with my life. A few months after he added me on facebook, I think it was around October because I remember something about this haunted house he worked at.
So we talked, and laughed and then we exchanged numbers. I helped him when I could and then I had a chance to see him. At his house when we were driving our friends home. SO I took it, looking back now I shouldn't have spent that much effort on it. But whatever I'm allowed to make mistakes right? Well when I got there we had been talking about how he needed a new collar, and I had mine on me so I took the red fur off and when I was standing in front of him. Looking up at him I placed it around his neck and smiled and giggled and he smiled back. I thought it was something more the it was. He gripped me and by the waste and pulled me in lighting kissing me. I smiled and play growled. he smiled back too.
We wrestled for a few minutes and he pinned me. He didn't expect me to flip him and was shocked. After my friends yelled at me that it was time to go I was hesitate to leave. He gripped me again with his nails crapping my back, I smiled and I returned his fun with ripping my nails a long his back. He shivered and smiled again. I ended up stealing his hat. Giggling all the way home from the ride. Hour or two home.
I'm going to skip a little bit in the story because I don't want to tell the side dates even though they are funny.
This was my birthday celebration, I was out by may dad's house and that is where he asked me out. It was over Facebook, I think that would have been my first clue in the whole relationship was going to be bullshit. But I kept on because I truely thought that I was going to be happy. I was sadly mistaken. Well we dated for only 2 weeks. We were sexual with each other, and he made the pain/bondage/aggressive side of me. Plus, he made a few points, and helped me with a couple of problems I had been having and I am much happier now. But there are things I wish i hadn't learned from him.
No guy is worth what I went threw. Even though it was a simple thing of boy liked me for my body, I still don't think any girl should go threw with it. If all he wanted was to be sexual he should have said so. Instead of lying and making false promises, and I wouldn't doubt he cheated on me. But I do know that I liked him a lot and this is just another problem in my dating life. I am learning not to trust guys. I know that's not fair but there are only 2 people that I have dated that I love. LOVE as in I LOVE THEM, and it's going to take a lot to get into some kind of relationship.
Well folks the reason I wrote about it is that person that this story is about was drunk and long behold made me feel like shit. And I had enough of it. So I cut him out of my life along with everyone else that was related to him in anyway. I deleted something I thought could work out as a friendship. Boy was I wrong.
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